I am through the holidays and feeling a bit unsettled. My brain has not wanted to create easily, not sleeping the best. I saw so much in Africa. At the end of my Christmas break from work, I was just beginning to feel like I was ready to write and edit more video footage. I begin to start, but then I feel like I want to sit on the couch, watch old movies and sleep. Why?
Well I am not really sure, but I suspect my brain is full and still processing. I chose to show the picture above with many faces and expressions and moods because in a small way, it encapsulates what I experienced. I feel deeply and have a sensitive tactile memory of their eyes, hands, face, energy, hope, and lust for life. The stories and videos will come, but for now it seems they cannot be coaxed out easily or predictably. Reflecting well and honestly is hard. It takes a lot of effort; but is worth the work. Africa is sweet and sour, simple and complicated. It is the best place in the world, and worst at the same time. It reflects the shiny brilliance of the children’s eyes’ and the grimy mud between their toes. It is soul filling and heartbreaking. It is worthy of reflecting, despite the dissonance.
I hear you… and I share a similar struggle. Thank you for putting words to a common sentiment.